Summer evokes thoughts of warm lazy days, laughing with friends, visiting new exciting places or revisiting the comfort of old familiar haunts. This summer has been a strange mixture of happy, sad, busy and lazy. For the first time in a while, I was fortunate to have the summer off from the ‘day’ job. I had so many plans. Things I could accomplish, time to spend with family, places to go, people to see and of course, writing constantly. Ah, but the best laid plans…
Sometimes life has a way of making other plans for us. After we kick and scream our disgusted way through the surprises she has in store for us, all that is left to do, is to go along for the ride. I did spend time with my family, but not in the relaxed vacation atmosphere I had hoped for. The loss of my father was difficult for us all and although we celebrated his long happy life, we also grieved his passing. Travel plans were postponed, the yard work fell to the wayside and friends were put on hold. Now as the crisp cool air of autumn tries to push its way in to the summer nights, I look back and think where did summer go? The only constant I can recall is the time I spent sitting on my front porch; Early morning as the stars faded to light. High noon with the sweltering heat that has plagued so many this year. In the quiet darkness as the night trains whistled in the distance and my favorite time, twilight. A time when the day is not quite ready to leave, and the night still waits to be acknowledged. A time when the world sighs and says, it is done for today, let it go.
I sat on the porch for more hours than I care to count this summer. I started to feel a bit ashamed of my laziness, but then I realized they were not simply lost moments. They were moments of recharging batteries, letting go of stress, remembering the past and dreaming of the future. I sat in the sun, rain, heat and darkness --sometimes with my laptop. I finished a few stories, started a few more. My first full length novel is soon to be released and required several rounds of edits. I co-edited my second anthology and began work on a third. I have partnered in a new publishing venture and have recorded several audio books. Could I have accomplished more inside the four walls of my office? Perhaps. Was I lazy? I don’t think so.
Sometimes the best way to push yourself harder is by sitting down and taking a break. We all have busy lives, too busy. There will always be something to do because that is how we have decided it should be. The next time you find yourself wondering how you will find the energy to accomplish everything you had committed to- take a break. Find your own ’porch’ and have a seat. I think you just may find what you’re looking for.
About the Author: www.genevieveash.com and www.alternatepress.co.uk.